強くなれ

Tue, Apr. 19th, 2016 01:58 am
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  1. It reads "tsuyokunare," and means "be strong." 
  2. According to Google, it means specifically "BE STRONG" (lol) 
  3. I originally learned this phrase through this Tenimyu song--the melody caught me first, but then the lyrics stuck with me.   
  4. Then along came Haikyuu!!, and I fell absolutely in love with the OST track that holds this exact name. 
  5. Somewhere along the way, the phrase became somewhat of a personal motto...a reminder that I have to be strong for myself, that I can't always rely on others in difficult times, that I gotta fight for myself. 
snz. /o-o/ 

Friendship.

Mon, Apr. 18th, 2016 03:08 am
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At the expense of sounding like a moody teenager:

In recent years, the surprising fragility of previously believed to be unbreakable friendships has always surprised me.

I know I sound naiive but hear me out. )

Well. That was thoroughly more depressing than I intended (lol). Time to continue my procrastination and read more iwaoi fluff until I fall asleep I guess...

snz. /o-o/

Recently,

Wed, Apr. 6th, 2016 05:13 pm
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due to that one evening's eventful conversation, my mind has been....disturbed.  

So, the past days and evenings have been spent consuming a lot of anime and manga, and the past few days where I drove have been spent listening to Hosoyan's solo song thing in Fire Emblem: Fates to take my mind off things. 

I finished watching Divine Gate, and am nearing the end of Kamisama Hajimemashita Season 2. I caught up on the last 7? 10? chapters of a josei manga I've been following, finished a different 15 chapter one, and went back to reread bits and pieces of Usagi Drop. And after finishing Kamisama Hajimemashita I'm pretty sure I'm gonna go binge on the other shoujo series I've been neglecting.................... 

o(--< 

But going back to the song real quick. 

MAN IS IT NICE. 

If you like soft, deep voices, then this is a really great, soothing song to listen to.  

It has a somewhat cyclical kind of feel to it, and it's very soft. If it didn't have the slight tinge of melancholy to it, it would probably make a fantastic lullaby lol. In fact, I'm determined to hum this to get my child to sleep if I ever have children LMAO. 

...back to class now lol :P 
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 I hate being so upset over petty things like this, but then again, that's what this blog was made for--for me to rant about anything and everything on my mind, with no regard other than to remain a decent human being. I.e., I probably sound absurdly petty and whiny on here, but alas. We're all only human. 

Potentially pointless & petty (or perhaps insightful for like-minded individuals) rant under the cut. 

I probably need better friends... )

Okay, not gonna lie, I think I also just...need more real-life friends who share the same interests with me. I recognize that it won't always be a 100% match, but it's really difficult when the only friend you have who's got the closest match in terms of interests is in a different timezone LOL... It's a two hour difference, but it's still a lot. It could be only midnight where she is, but it'll be 2am where I am, and if we talk, I'm losing sleep. 

And it's not as if I don't have other friends. But currently my biggest interest is seiyuu, and there are very, very few people in the English-speaking realm who share that interest (beyond Miyano Mamoru, lol) and who have the capacity and ability to care about you beyond fandom things, and will act on it if need be. 

I'm totally fine with my other friends, don't get me wrong--I love them all. But I guess mostly I feel like I put in a lot with my friendships and don't get a lot out of them. I know I shouldn't expect to, but I have to admit--it's draining. And since I'm going into mental health therapy/counseling for my career, if I can't find a friend who'll put in their all into the friendship as well, I have a bad, bad feeling that I'll burn out from my career very quickly--perhaps even before I manage to get hired (since I'll be working through practicum next fall). 

So...yeah. Where do I find like-minded people to befriend...who are actually chill and not awkward...because history has proven that "Anime Club" is not the answer, lol. 

Also just...does anyone else feel the same way? Or am I really just being too petty, or perhaps even just expecting too much out of the internet? Maybe I'm just not cut out for internet culture? Perhaps I take everything too seriously??? 

snz. /o-o/ 
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Inspired from a conversation I had with a friend last night, lol. 

なんで )

So. Yeah. That happened. /)////(\ 

//Runs to Rem Arlond (CV. Saitou Souma) for comfort-- 

snz. /o-o/ 

Needy?

Wed, Mar. 30th, 2016 05:02 pm
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 The fact that I've been having so many thoughts that I want to jot down probably means my period is coming up soon, lol. :P 

I'm not being too whiny, am I?  )
Well, since I'm actually in class, I'll leave it at that haha. Time to tune back in to the old droning professor... 

snz. /o-o/ 
sneezedesu: gakuran!yamato is best yamato (gakuran)
I should really be reading/writing for my class in 2 hours so this will be quick, lol.

What, me? Sensitive? Whatever made you think that?  )

snz. /o-o/
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Groups today was...tense...as usual, lol. I'm surprised by how seemingly hurt I feel by some of the comments, to be honest, but there isn't much I can do about it. All I can do is acknowledge that it was an opinion had of me, and to process it and move on with life, I guess. 

Well, that's not what I'm here to talk about today though lol. 

Man, maybe I really am just too sensitive... )
I really hope writing out my thoughts is a good thing rather than a bad thing. I can't help but remember how in freshman year of undergrad, when I used to let out all my thoughts on tumblr, it didn't really do much to help me except let off the in-the-moment steam. It wasn't until I got busier and had to just live life without constantly reflecting on stuff did I really get to enjoy undergrad. I guess we'll just see where this goes, and I'll  simply stop if I begin to see that it's hurting me more than helping me. :P 

snz. /o-o/ 

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Didn't think I'd be needing this blog so soon LOL but here we are. 

A quick disclaimer is probably necessary...so:
I am not targeting any specific people. I repeat: I am not targeting anyone in particular! And to my friends who may read this, I most certainly don't hate you if you think you've done anything I mentioned below!!! These are just feelings that have built up a lot over the past few months, but I never quite got to get off my chest, nor explain properly. Or at least, I haven't gotten to explain since their most recent evolution lol...these feelings seem to change every few months. :P 

I think I'm just too sensitive...maybe? )

Well. I ended up with basically an essay LMAO... That'll be enough for now...especially since it's past 3AM and I'm STILL not done with this chapter of note-taking. Ethics isn't the most interesting thing to read about, to be perfectly honest, but it is a necessary thing to learn so I will charge forward...!!! 

snz. /o-o/ 

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