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I dunno about most people, but oftentimes when talking with friends, I feel the need to constantly apologize for my behavior, what I'm talking about, and/or how much I'm speaking.

Anyone else have this kind of problem? )  

No one should ever feel the need to constantly apologize for what they're saying, I think. I always try to respect the other person who's speaking, and listen attentively so that they can feel that I'm listening and really care. I honestly would never want someone to feel the same sort of...pain? as I feel when I feel like apologizing for speaking. 

So...yeah. Try not to browse Facebook when your friend's talking, folks. And try to interact with your friend's conversation more...a lack of response and eye contact has more impact than you may think! 

snz. /o-o/ 

Rain.

Thu, Jun. 2nd, 2016 03:21 pm
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Hello, to whoever bothers reading these (lol). 

rain, rain, go away (come again another day) )

Eventually today I'll finally clean up my desk and my room...and start on the vacation journal I never finished...(lol) OTL

snz. /o-o/ 

Moods.

Wed, Jun. 1st, 2016 04:11 pm
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 I just wrote out a crap ton of shit and then it all vanished because I accidentally hit the back button on the page. 

Fucking hell. 

Not even the world wants to let me vent properly. 

Guess I'll try to remember what I wrote...

ugh. )

Lol I guess I'll leave it at that =_=; 

snz. /o-o/ 

Kouhai.

Fri, Apr. 29th, 2016 06:22 pm
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 Drags hands down face what do I DO about this CHILD...!!!!! 

Why has this persisted for sO L O N G-- )

Holds head in hands. I really don't know where I was going with this anymore. Basically this child is not good for my health..!!!!

snz. /o-o/

強くなれ

Tue, Apr. 19th, 2016 01:58 am
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  1. It reads "tsuyokunare," and means "be strong." 
  2. According to Google, it means specifically "BE STRONG" (lol) 
  3. I originally learned this phrase through this Tenimyu song--the melody caught me first, but then the lyrics stuck with me.   
  4. Then along came Haikyuu!!, and I fell absolutely in love with the OST track that holds this exact name. 
  5. Somewhere along the way, the phrase became somewhat of a personal motto...a reminder that I have to be strong for myself, that I can't always rely on others in difficult times, that I gotta fight for myself. 
snz. /o-o/ 

Friendship.

Mon, Apr. 18th, 2016 03:08 am
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At the expense of sounding like a moody teenager:

In recent years, the surprising fragility of previously believed to be unbreakable friendships has always surprised me.

I know I sound naiive but hear me out. )

Well. That was thoroughly more depressing than I intended (lol). Time to continue my procrastination and read more iwaoi fluff until I fall asleep I guess...

snz. /o-o/

A new era?!

Sat, Apr. 16th, 2016 12:46 pm
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I got a new laptop! 

Yaaaaayyyyy \o/

But it only has 128 GB of memory, and only 117 GB of that was free LMAO...rip....

For now I've hit a compromise with transferring part of my files into the new laptop and leaving my old one as like...my multimedia storage? lmao 

But it's still kind of frustrating, especially since I can't listen to music on my laptop anymore /: 

However the exciting(?) thing is that I've for the first time decided to name a piece of technology LOL...at the age of 23 :P 

Because it's got a metal shell, it's silver on the outside, so I named it Suga! :D (I'm not Haikyuu!! trash I promise

Aight well that's all the updates I got for now lol. Later~ 

Recently,

Wed, Apr. 6th, 2016 05:13 pm
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due to that one evening's eventful conversation, my mind has been....disturbed.  

So, the past days and evenings have been spent consuming a lot of anime and manga, and the past few days where I drove have been spent listening to Hosoyan's solo song thing in Fire Emblem: Fates to take my mind off things. 

I finished watching Divine Gate, and am nearing the end of Kamisama Hajimemashita Season 2. I caught up on the last 7? 10? chapters of a josei manga I've been following, finished a different 15 chapter one, and went back to reread bits and pieces of Usagi Drop. And after finishing Kamisama Hajimemashita I'm pretty sure I'm gonna go binge on the other shoujo series I've been neglecting.................... 

o(--< 

But going back to the song real quick. 

MAN IS IT NICE. 

If you like soft, deep voices, then this is a really great, soothing song to listen to.  

It has a somewhat cyclical kind of feel to it, and it's very soft. If it didn't have the slight tinge of melancholy to it, it would probably make a fantastic lullaby lol. In fact, I'm determined to hum this to get my child to sleep if I ever have children LMAO. 

...back to class now lol :P 
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 I hate being so upset over petty things like this, but then again, that's what this blog was made for--for me to rant about anything and everything on my mind, with no regard other than to remain a decent human being. I.e., I probably sound absurdly petty and whiny on here, but alas. We're all only human. 

Potentially pointless & petty (or perhaps insightful for like-minded individuals) rant under the cut. 

I probably need better friends... )

Okay, not gonna lie, I think I also just...need more real-life friends who share the same interests with me. I recognize that it won't always be a 100% match, but it's really difficult when the only friend you have who's got the closest match in terms of interests is in a different timezone LOL... It's a two hour difference, but it's still a lot. It could be only midnight where she is, but it'll be 2am where I am, and if we talk, I'm losing sleep. 

And it's not as if I don't have other friends. But currently my biggest interest is seiyuu, and there are very, very few people in the English-speaking realm who share that interest (beyond Miyano Mamoru, lol) and who have the capacity and ability to care about you beyond fandom things, and will act on it if need be. 

I'm totally fine with my other friends, don't get me wrong--I love them all. But I guess mostly I feel like I put in a lot with my friendships and don't get a lot out of them. I know I shouldn't expect to, but I have to admit--it's draining. And since I'm going into mental health therapy/counseling for my career, if I can't find a friend who'll put in their all into the friendship as well, I have a bad, bad feeling that I'll burn out from my career very quickly--perhaps even before I manage to get hired (since I'll be working through practicum next fall). 

So...yeah. Where do I find like-minded people to befriend...who are actually chill and not awkward...because history has proven that "Anime Club" is not the answer, lol. 

Also just...does anyone else feel the same way? Or am I really just being too petty, or perhaps even just expecting too much out of the internet? Maybe I'm just not cut out for internet culture? Perhaps I take everything too seriously??? 

snz. /o-o/ 

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