I hate being so upset over petty things like this, but then again, that's what this blog was made for--for me to rant about anything and everything on my mind, with no regard other than to remain a decent human being. I.e., I probably sound absurdly petty and whiny on here, but alas. We're all only human.
Potentially pointless & petty (or perhaps insightful for like-minded individuals) rant under the cut. ( I probably need better friends... )
Okay, not gonna lie, I think I also just...need more real-life friends who share the same interests with me. I recognize that it won't always be a 100% match, but it's really difficult when the only friend you have who's got the closest match in terms of interests is in a different timezone LOL... It's a two hour difference, but it's still a lot. It could be only midnight where she is, but it'll be 2am where I am, and if we talk, I'm losing sleep.
And it's not as if I don't have other friends. But currently my biggest interest is seiyuu, and there are very, very few people in the English-speaking realm who share that interest (beyond Miyano Mamoru, lol) and who have the capacity and ability to care about you beyond fandom things, and will act on it if need be.
I'm totally fine with my other friends, don't get me wrong--I love them all. But I guess mostly I feel like I put in a lot with my friendships and don't get a lot out of them. I know I shouldn't expect to, but I have to admit--it's draining. And since I'm going into mental health therapy/counseling for my career, if I can't find a friend who'll put in their all into the friendship as well, I have a bad, bad feeling that I'll burn out from my career very quickly--perhaps even before I manage to get hired (since I'll be working through practicum next fall).
So...yeah. Where do I find like-minded people to befriend...who are actually chill and not awkward...because history has proven that "Anime Club" is not the answer, lol.
Also just...does anyone else feel the same way? Or am I really just being too petty, or perhaps even just expecting too much out of the internet? Maybe I'm just not cut out for internet culture? Perhaps I take everything too seriously???